Vice Versa.

Vice Versa was the only song that could bring the album back down to earth from Colin's Car, and this is where it maybe gets a bit deep SORRY!!

It's about someone who's been in your life for so long, that you can't imagine your life without them once it's run its course, even though you were absolutely no good for each other.

When I was younger I didn't like myself very much. My self-perception was warped enough that I was suspicious of anyone liking me for who I was, let alone the concept of someone being unconditionally exclusively mine for so long, which as far as I knew was irreplaceably elusive.

Even though my one at the time wasn't unconditional. All the things core to my identity - gigging, socialising, going out, going away, growing my hair a bit, even a single pint of Guinness - gradually became things to be alarmingly anxious about. We all have struggles, but hers consumed me til we were both shells.

And I couldn't imagine things being any better, so I accepted compromises that slowly drained everything about me, falsely accepting it's part and parcel and I'll never have it any happier or healthier.

Then realising, after a while of desperately struggling to process how we'd grown apart beyond the point of no return... wait I'm actually liberated now!!

This was the second lyric I'd ever finished, about a year after Out Of Hand. But the music? I had that since 2012!! I then caught the melody in Autumn 2019 with a high dose of Rubber Soul in my blood.

I started the lyrics whilst in a bad place, then finished and recorded most of it in March 2020, when I was in a very good place! Live drums engineered by Andy Furmage at eRax Sound Art in Welling on NYE 2022, and some synths and a couple of vocal lines were overdubbed in 2023. All instruments by me.

Again being an early venture in the lyrical realm, some phrasing was a bit primitive. But the line "I can't put together the words that I want to say" was both relevant and unintentionally meta

People seem to really like it. And if it helps people make sense of similar situations then I'm glad it exists. It's track 9 x